This is what being a journalist for 4 months taught me

This is what being a journalist for 4 months taught me

I got to live out my dreams as a journalist this summer, and this is what the experience taught me.

Say something

Say something

What’s worse: to not know what to say? Or to know exactly what you want to say, but unable to actually say it?

#MusicMonday: Reflecting on 15 years of music, teaching, and growth

#MusicMonday: Reflecting on 15 years of music, teaching, and growth

15 years is a substantial chunk of time. As I slowly change gears, I wanted to reflect on my time as a musician and music educator.

22 lessons learned

22 lessons learned

Today is my 22nd birthday. This is a summation of some things that I learned over the past year

Across a crowded room, I saw you – audio encore

Across a crowded room, I saw you – audio encore

An encore of my essay “Across a crowded room, I saw you”… in audio form. Take a listen.

Across a crowded room, I saw you

Across a crowded room, I saw you

No one knew that there was one whole year where I had waited for you to open your eyes and realize that I was who you needed this entire time. No one knew that I had begged and prayed that you would realize that I was the love of your life… at 12 years old. 

In you, I found home

In you, I found home

Once, I found home in the strong arms of friends and lovers. When I called to them, their smile would light up the rooms within. As our bodies connected, I could feel myself become one with them, our heartbeats pounding in perfect sync. We were friends, we were lovers, we were home for each other.

To be vulnerable

To be vulnerable

When you are vulnerable, that protective shield is gone, either by conscious choice or by virtue of the situation you find yourself in. This kind of exposure can be daunting, uncomfortable, and unsettling.

My one year conversion anniversary!

My one year conversion anniversary!

I filled the void of feeling unloved with a number of extracurriculars, trying to win people’s approval. But despite my sense of accomplishment, my heart still felt empty. I felt as if my life had no purpose.