18

the bridge between adulthood and childhood

i’ve made it here
despite the amount of times i thought of leaving it all behind
giving it all up
for shortcuts
i lost all my trust
in life, love, humanity and myself
but here i am, 18 years later
a rather daunting number
just another day
waking up in the same bed, getting down on the same knees to pray
that tomorrow will be better
that i will survive today
that i can make up for yesterday
what mistakes did i make
when i should have figured out the answers long time ago
and not screw up again and again
the friends that i made and the ones that i have lost
the loves that have captured my heart
the relationships that were forced to restart
because of me
because of you
because of us
i learned after 18 years
that it’s okay to be unsure of the future
that sometimes, things aren’t worth fighting for
and when they are
that’s when you put 110% into what you do
sometimes people will weigh you down
but in the end
who is there to stick around but yourself
be true to who you are
don’t change yourself for one person who won’t be there for you in the future
but if you change yourself
you will lose yourself
in the faces and the lies
do not despise
who you are
just because you don’t look like the people in the magazines
it’s a struggle
everyday there are new challenges
new ways to tempt yourself into being someone different
because it is so much easier to pretend
but the real test comes when you stay true
be you
you have been this way for 18 years
never lose sight of that
here’s to many more years
and to all the friendships, challenges and heartbreak
they will hurt you
they may shake you
but they can never break you

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A Vancouver-based writer who won't let her height get in the way of her dreams! Lover of God, good food, coffee & beer, corgis, and exploring with family & friends. Producer & host of Y57 Media on Vancouver Co-op Radio, CFRO 100.5 FM and a weekly contributor for Curiocity Vancouver.

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